Ah, so much has happened in the recent past few weeks.
new semester, the (rather depressing) death of a close relative, my steady realization that i actually have a problem and it's not just a rumor that i'm crazy.... oh they say i'm crazy now... *snap out of it* O.o oh dear.

and then i was absent for a week and have been struggleing in the schooling place. the weather is being psycho... and so after school activities have been canceled 2 Wednesdays in a row... meaning no soul caliber II.... *cry*

*sigh*

anyway, i'm steadily been in a downward spiral mentally speaking and have completely undone much of the progress I'm made over the past couple years. My and my friend Katy shall be working on a mini-project while we work out the details for the series we're working on.
i'd give more details but i'm afraid of people stealing the idea.

BEWARE BAKED GOODS!!!!
anyway, so for the past school year I've been venting to a teacher at my school because my guidance counselor creeps me out (and he kinda fails at being counselor).
However, i think I've been bothering him too much with random crap such as youtube videos O.o that i think i should back off for a while.

on a side note i'm worried that i might need a behavioral therapist because of the fact that i do indeed have a problem that i am begining to accept. plus ii felt some of the physical repercussions of my behaviors... so... i'm going to try to find a behavioral therapist which specializes in what i have.

In other news, i've been haveing really strange dreams... everything from Cannibals to school to hotels and cruises and ships and basements and a whole bunch of other crap...
i think i need some dream therapy too...
Complex Organic Nomenclature goes right over my head.... AKA no comprendo. spanish on the other hand i pwn. totally. Actually, i pwn science in general, just organic nomenclature= fail...
O.o
anyway...
we're reading frankenstein in english... btw...

also! my relationship woth my parents confuses me because It's rather REALLY GOOD or REALLY BAD. talk about a stable home environment... we definately put the FUN back in disFUNctional...

i fail at arguing with people.... so eh. just eh.

oh and i've been trying to spread the word/name shegufta on the internet as an adjective eqivalent to the word cool or awsome (no one must now it's origin...) .
lulzorzpwnedkthxbai