Another one of my Psychotic/psychedelic experiences....
No I wasn't on drugs when this happened...
ok so last night/this morning I went to bed at like, 4 something AM and (if you've been keeping up with the blog for a while, you'll know that I've had weird experiences while lying in bed,)
so while falling asleep i felt slightly strange but thought nothing of it.i was slowly drifting into sleep (but not yet there), waking up and falling asleep alternatively a few times as i really needed the rest but it was almost as if something metaphysical was trying to change that. And then, all of a sudden, i feel extremely strange, and I was really confused and scared, because USUALLY when I'm in a dream, i don't think about it being a dream (with exception of a dream i had a few years back involving some social situation that i don't recall very well) , and while waking up, as soon as i begin to relate my experience to a "dream", i USUALLY begin to fade from it, although that is after i reach a fully conscious state.
This time was different.
(this next line may sound cliche) i saw lots of white light and i had an eerie feeling running through me and i was thinking and asking myself whether or not i was awake and i was confused. of course this had to be a dream because i was at home sleeping, right?
but it felt like i was in some limbo passageway/wormhole from wherever the hell i go when I'm sleeping to back in my bedroom and it felt so real like, my entire inner self (i think) there were some dim streaks of grey and yellow (really really light) going forward, and it felt like i was staying in one spot but at the same time falling back. and then like towards the left of my vision field i saw a landscape-ish thing. like, it was desert-esque (for some reason there was a black kinda frame but i couldn't really tell because it was happening so quickly) , and in the middle there was a highway and to the left of the highway was the side of a steep rocky mountain, and the side was kinda flat is, like sheet rock, there was some sparse vegetation to the right of the highway and some clouds. the colors were really dull and the image was zooming out and (i think ) there was the frame.
(Mind you, this happened over what i remember to be a few seconds but i don't think time is equivalent in the two worlds, plus i was wondering wtf was going on because my "rational" thinking mind was trying to rationalize this experience saying am i hallucinating, why would i be hallucinating, could it be sleep deprivation, etc, although that's the cynical thing to do, and the naive thing to do, which i often do, would be to think that i was consciously viewing my journey from the dream worlds to this world, hinted in my other dreams )
so i was back in the white (passageway? i couldn't tell because there was no shadow or walls) but it was more like instead of moving away zooming out, it was changing angle of view zooming out, so the picture/image of the highway was slanted or something. and there were tons of lights and some white/grey/whatever i saw and i was ridiculously in an utter state of confusion, (here's the part that was the main part and most memorable)and it felt like i was floating up perpendicularly to whatever i felt was the ground (i could feel gravity) and an increasing amount of fear turned into a surge within the couple of seconds of increasing altitude and i was scared to death. and then all of a sudden, i feel back into my body and woke up slowly. like, the rate of me falling wasn't affected by free fall or anything. i just felt strange and intense fear and fell back into my body in bed, at the same angle in the same position. During the bit where i fell back into my body, i could feel my sensory switching FROM MY SOUL TO MY BODY.
like, my emotions in my semi-dream state felt completely through my inner and as i fell back down to bed i lost that feeling and began to feel my covers. and it wasn't the typical waking up experience, because i didn't widely open my eyes or anything r wake up suddenly. i just, traveled back to my room. I feel that that whole experience wasn't completely in the "dream world" because usually in the dream world i am no consciously aware of it being a dream, much like how in this world i don't consciously think omg I'm in the "real" world.
It wasn't a near death experience, because i wasn't dying
I don't know if it was an out of body experience because i didn't see my body(i felt it) and i didn't see my body in the real world, and i wasn't looking down and seeing myself.
idk wtf happened.
anyway, i had school in a couple hours so i tried to get some more sleep. and i felt the way i often feel when i wake up with the leftover feeling from the dream(and this time without the falling or the passageway) . And i was feeling that subtle indescribable feeling of surreality that always happens.
upon reflecting on my experience with, i concluded that indeed, my "soul" or mind or spirit or whatever you want to call it, is separated from my physical self when i sleep. Like, i am separate from myself. it's freaky.
So it was one of three thing -some kind of psychosis(with crazy experiences before, with the monsters preventing my from traveling to the dream world and blocking my path playfully as if they have something to gain without seeing myself), sleep deprivation related hallucinations, or the one idea that i would have otherwise scoffed at had i not experienced it myself, that i was seriously passing through different dimensions and the radical idea that the soul leaves my body every time i fall asleep/reach rem and that i was experiencing an anomaly in which i was being pushed and pulled in and out of consciousness, the last time being one in which i bore witness to.
so i thought i was going insane but then Marissa Baxter from my studio art class said that she also had a dream in which she was floating up and fell back into her body. She was just as weirded out as i was that someone else had such a similar dream.
i don't know whether it's coincidence or not or whether everyone is going insane but something weird is definitely happening
~SiR
lately a lot of people are having weird dreams with incredibly strange situations i haven't heard of any with experiences similar to mine besides my art classmate Marissa and this one incident.
nothing significant and I'm not jumping to conclusions. just noting that people have been having weird dreams and none of which make sense anymore.
to quote from somewhere, "I am not suffering from insanity... I'm enjoying every minute of it."
ok so last night/this morning I went to bed at like, 4 something AM and (if you've been keeping up with the blog for a while, you'll know that I've had weird experiences while lying in bed,)
so while falling asleep i felt slightly strange but thought nothing of it.i was slowly drifting into sleep (but not yet there), waking up and falling asleep alternatively a few times as i really needed the rest but it was almost as if something metaphysical was trying to change that. And then, all of a sudden, i feel extremely strange, and I was really confused and scared, because USUALLY when I'm in a dream, i don't think about it being a dream (with exception of a dream i had a few years back involving some social situation that i don't recall very well) , and while waking up, as soon as i begin to relate my experience to a "dream", i USUALLY begin to fade from it, although that is after i reach a fully conscious state.
This time was different.
(this next line may sound cliche) i saw lots of white light and i had an eerie feeling running through me and i was thinking and asking myself whether or not i was awake and i was confused. of course this had to be a dream because i was at home sleeping, right?
but it felt like i was in some limbo passageway/wormhole from wherever the hell i go when I'm sleeping to back in my bedroom and it felt so real like, my entire inner self (i think) there were some dim streaks of grey and yellow (really really light) going forward, and it felt like i was staying in one spot but at the same time falling back. and then like towards the left of my vision field i saw a landscape-ish thing. like, it was desert-esque (for some reason there was a black kinda frame but i couldn't really tell because it was happening so quickly) , and in the middle there was a highway and to the left of the highway was the side of a steep rocky mountain, and the side was kinda flat is, like sheet rock, there was some sparse vegetation to the right of the highway and some clouds. the colors were really dull and the image was zooming out and (i think ) there was the frame.
(Mind you, this happened over what i remember to be a few seconds but i don't think time is equivalent in the two worlds, plus i was wondering wtf was going on because my "rational" thinking mind was trying to rationalize this experience saying am i hallucinating, why would i be hallucinating, could it be sleep deprivation, etc, although that's the cynical thing to do, and the naive thing to do, which i often do, would be to think that i was consciously viewing my journey from the dream worlds to this world, hinted in my other dreams )
so i was back in the white (passageway? i couldn't tell because there was no shadow or walls) but it was more like instead of moving away zooming out, it was changing angle of view zooming out, so the picture/image of the highway was slanted or something. and there were tons of lights and some white/grey/whatever i saw and i was ridiculously in an utter state of confusion, (here's the part that was the main part and most memorable)and it felt like i was floating up perpendicularly to whatever i felt was the ground (i could feel gravity) and an increasing amount of fear turned into a surge within the couple of seconds of increasing altitude and i was scared to death. and then all of a sudden, i feel back into my body and woke up slowly. like, the rate of me falling wasn't affected by free fall or anything. i just felt strange and intense fear and fell back into my body in bed, at the same angle in the same position. During the bit where i fell back into my body, i could feel my sensory switching FROM MY SOUL TO MY BODY.
like, my emotions in my semi-dream state felt completely through my inner and as i fell back down to bed i lost that feeling and began to feel my covers. and it wasn't the typical waking up experience, because i didn't widely open my eyes or anything r wake up suddenly. i just, traveled back to my room. I feel that that whole experience wasn't completely in the "dream world" because usually in the dream world i am no consciously aware of it being a dream, much like how in this world i don't consciously think omg I'm in the "real" world.
It wasn't a near death experience, because i wasn't dying
I don't know if it was an out of body experience because i didn't see my body(i felt it) and i didn't see my body in the real world, and i wasn't looking down and seeing myself.
idk wtf happened.
anyway, i had school in a couple hours so i tried to get some more sleep. and i felt the way i often feel when i wake up with the leftover feeling from the dream(and this time without the falling or the passageway) . And i was feeling that subtle indescribable feeling of surreality that always happens.
upon reflecting on my experience with, i concluded that indeed, my "soul" or mind or spirit or whatever you want to call it, is separated from my physical self when i sleep. Like, i am separate from myself. it's freaky.
So it was one of three thing -some kind of psychosis(with crazy experiences before, with the monsters preventing my from traveling to the dream world and blocking my path playfully as if they have something to gain without seeing myself), sleep deprivation related hallucinations, or the one idea that i would have otherwise scoffed at had i not experienced it myself, that i was seriously passing through different dimensions and the radical idea that the soul leaves my body every time i fall asleep/reach rem and that i was experiencing an anomaly in which i was being pushed and pulled in and out of consciousness, the last time being one in which i bore witness to.
so i thought i was going insane but then Marissa Baxter from my studio art class said that she also had a dream in which she was floating up and fell back into her body. She was just as weirded out as i was that someone else had such a similar dream.
i don't know whether it's coincidence or not or whether everyone is going insane but something weird is definitely happening
~SiR
lately a lot of people are having weird dreams with incredibly strange situations i haven't heard of any with experiences similar to mine besides my art classmate Marissa and this one incident.
nothing significant and I'm not jumping to conclusions. just noting that people have been having weird dreams and none of which make sense anymore.
to quote from somewhere, "I am not suffering from insanity... I'm enjoying every minute of it."
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