not well

my parents are always making me feel fat/dumb/ugly/stupid
idk i think they beleive in "negative reinforcement"
but refuse to practice positive reinforcement.
>.<>.< I don't get good grades because my parents want me too. i stopped that in elm school. i'm never gonna succeed at something if i'm only doing it for someone else, with no joy myself. when i was 10 i decided i was gonna get good grades for me. i was gonna tryy my best and be ok with that. and since then i've been getting straight A's. not for my parents, for me. And since my classes used to be really easy, i deserved all A's, just because middle school and 9th grde were so easy. Now in 11th grade things really are HARD and if i get B's in a couple classes i'd be ok with that, because i effing tried my hardest. but my parents won't accept the fact that these classes are hard and just think i'm using it as an excuse. My teachers respect me 10 times more than my parents do. gah. and i just feel like crap cuz my mom/dad keeps telling me what a useless piece of crap i am.

>.<
i mean, they tell me i'm great, like, 2-3 times a year, an dthey tell me i suck the rest of the year. wtf.